Depression.

It's been a battle of mine since I was in 8th grade and sometimes I fear that someday I'll go back down that steep path. Today because of all this rain it's bringing me back to all the bad times I felt. It's all so empty. I should feel happy that my life has been so steady. But because of how slowly things have been going I have no motivation, no need to progress. I think I need to be in love. Or at least find a god damn muse to fill my head.